So Much To Do

So much to do, So little time to do it! Today, I have been making my "to do" lists for the week in preparation for our mission trip to Mexico. It is hard sometimes to set aside all the stresses at home in anticipation of what God is going to do the next 2 weeks.

My oldest step-daughter is scheduled to have a cervical biopsy tomorrow. She doesn't even know that we know about it, but we will be praying just the same. I try hard to let it all go and have even said I was "washing my hands" of her. However, each day I find myself concerned about her health, her lifestyle, and her overall well-being. I sometimes wish I was the evil, uncaring witch she thinks I am, just so I wouldn't feel the hurt!!! That sounds crazy.

My husband and I are trying to remain consistent. Our hopes are that one day she will be able to look back and see that we always wanted what was best for her and that we have always loved her unconditionally. It hurts so much to continue giving and caring only to receive hatred in return. I wish she would let us help her through these hard times...